Tuesday Weigh-In @ WW

If you follow my tweets you know that I have had a crazy week.  Baby S has hit a growth spurt and has been feeding every 1-1.5 hours almost every day for the last week (minus the night time).  That has meant few moments where I am not holding him, thus little has gotten done.  I know this sounds all too familiar to other moms and I think we all share the same guilt that goes along with it too.  I feel like I have had no time to do any cleaning or cooking...well you get the idea.  The two things that I found plenty of time for? Feeding Baby S and eating.  Yup, I was ravenous all week.  At some point I gave in and decided that I was just going to eat if I was hungry, to hell with the scales.

So fast forward to today when I was about to step on the scale, convinced that I was going to weigh more than last week, pissed that I had eaten so much, and so dang exhausted from feeding Baby S.  I walked up to my WW leader and burst into tears.  Seriously, tears came streaming down my face and I told her that I was sure that I had gained weight this week and I couldn't bear to know how much.  She was so kind and seemed all too prepared for my meltdown.  Somehow she got me on the scale and you know what?? I lost weight!  I don't know how it happened.  The only thing I can figure is that my body was actually burning more calories than it had been because Baby S was calling on it to make more and more milk.  I also think it helped that I didn't have anything too terrible in the house to eat.  So when I was eating all the time, I was eating Fiber One bars, carrots, cheese sticks, vita-tops, yoplait smoothies (the ones from the freezer) and low calorie chips and crackers (I have no idea how many points I was eating because at the same time I gave in to my hunger, I threw out the points).  I am so glad that the week is behind me and Baby S is slowing down on the feedings. In fact, I even got some cleaning done today...but I was extra motivated (more details about my motivation in one of my next posts). 

So here is the breakdown:
Goal: 50 pounds
Week: 6
Loss this week: 1.2 pounds

Total Loss: 8.6 pounds

One last note- I am nearing my first milestone in my weight loss.  Once I lose over 2 more pounds I will be under a number that I swore I never would go over.  I have really beat myself up since I realized I was over this particular number and I think it will be a huge weight (both literally and figuratively) off my shoulders.